Fact

i'm lost, full of disappointment and anger.
my feeling is now mix up and in a mess.
previously, i build confidence in myself and tell myself that i can do it!
i did practice and prepare myself for the speaking test.
but, everything is not going smoothly as expected.
i keep stuck here and there, repeating points and words that i had present.
i don't think of the point to oppose other option.
what am i doing this? i couldn't even smile when i was on my way back from school. 
this is it. everything is over and no one can change the result.
this is the fact, different from what has been predicted. i hate myself.