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this passage will going to have many languages mix together!osmetimes maybe u'll see rude words.don be surprise..
 i'm damn sien now!hate my life!i damn hate my form 6 life!!!my friends not with me!new environment and many new faces!my previous school is a school which majority chinese.now "my school" majority other races.i cannot adapt to the environment.i cannot adapt to the teaching way of form 6.i cannot adapt with new ppl.i cannot adapt with new teachers.i cannot adapt in everything of my life now~!i wanna return to secondary school life!!if there's rlly a way for me to return to last year,i'll do anything or sacrifice anything of me in order for that dream to comes true.i miss my life in secondary!i miss everything in secondary school!!!i want back to secondary life!!!y can't i??? life now sucks!!y i should suffer like this?how i'm going to go through my one and a half year?? now already physical and mental suffering!shit!i dono how to overcome all of these.hope that my feeling towards life will change.even a bit and making me not so much suffer now i also want!i really super damn hate my life!!!!!!

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today is WESAK DAY. i follow my family to KUCHING BUDDHIST SOCIETY and KUCHING BUDDHIST FELLOWSHIP. i meet my national service friends at there. but they go back to their camp very soon. boys are bald but hair still can be seen. few girls dye their hair into blonde color.these scene make me recall back the memory of my color hair.poor hair, now is black in color already as form 6 doesn't allow students to have color hair.today is holiday. i plan to revise my secondary books but i spoil it myself.in the end i went kim bay online for whole day and went to watch wesak day's parade held. haven't finish my homework yet,dono how i'm going to die later >.<